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Hello everyone.



Forgive my extremely long hiatus. It hasn't been just months of absence, it has been years. My life took on a weird turn and I lost so much. I was in the deepest pit of depression I've know, for someone who had been clinically depressed for 22 years, to the point where I had decided on suicide until God pulled me out. I sunk so, so, low, and I couldn't see any light or any way out. Things got so bad that I could not afford my own meals if I had to live on my own, a thirty year old jobless, dependent female (I am now 36). My old laptop fell and shattered, I had no access to the internet or  my blogs, and my phone just wasn't smart enough. Still isn't.

I was still writing though. I filled three journals! But my entries were really sad and depressing, and I didn't want to put my problems on anyone reading, so I didn't think of blogging then (not like I had a choice; I didn't have the means to). Maybe if I had, I would have somewhere along the line gotten responses that would have helped me out sooner.

I will eventually communicate how I got out of the rut, and I will blog from my journals, from the day I made the decision to live, but in no particular order. Maybe, just maybe, it will help someone out there. Just maybe someone will choose life regardless of what he/she is going through. I will be putting my life out there, touching stuff that is really personal to me, and not blogging to entertain anyone. You will know my struggles, past and current, and you will know when and how I came out of them. I have learnt that healing is a process - you will stumble, fall sometimes, fail sometimes, but what matters is that you pick yourself up and keep moving. Where it is totally and completely beyond you, God steps in, if you let Him. Where your faith cannot reach, you can lean on someone whose faith is stronger. That's what I did, and you will know about it.

Thank you for visiting and for reading if you have. I hope you come back for more.

Feel free to leave your comments. And if you want to send a personal message, you can reach me at ejatau at gmail dot com. 

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